Just finished my ICT project.
Feel want to share my feelings here.
'The feelings been betray by friend'
have you ever been this before ?
i think yes ? maybe ?
Hmm. I always treat my friends with true heart.
I admit that , maybe sometimes one of my friends make me feel like fan gan ?
I will really treat you quite bad even not scold you in front others people.
If who never try , can ask my friend - ying wen.
We are best friends.
But she gave me the feelings and now better a lot.
I will never never treat my friends bad until we become starnger.
Maybe i will treat you bad few weeks or few month , but never forever.
I wont. because i hate the feelings actually.
well, come back to my topic.
I love my friends.
As how my baby said : Friends always important than lovers.
fine.
I treat you quite good. This is what i feel.
because i always stand by your side when you're having problem.
Even i will been "kill" from my others friends.
but , i dont mind it.
I just ignore how people say and try to be friend with you.
And finally because of me , they try to be friend with you too.
But at last ....
What respond you gave me ?!
'BETRAY' !
I know it this morning.
My heart been hurt.
Even you are not my lovers.
But you are my friend that who i TRUSTED.
I feel angry but not at all.
I feel very sad because maybe i will lost one friends.
And the most i feel is DISAPPOINTED.
why ?
Im trying my best to change your thinking.
Im trying my best to let others accept you.
Im trying my best to be your friend who can always stand by your side when you need someone.
But you done somethings make me hurt and disappointed.
But i know , i've wrong too.
because i din't try to understand you.
I din't try to understand you are which type of friends.
and now regret it's really toooo late.
Say really , quite hard to put you down.
Because you ever is one of my friend.
And we have the friend feelings.
just like you have feelings with your lovers.
Just the feelings not same.
Fine ! I dont know what im going to do with you.
Im still thinking.
Even you betray me , but i still thinking will you worth me to forgive you?
It's really a high level question for me.
Just now finished school.
I saw my bf .
But we din't talk.
When i saw him , my tears almost drop down.
But i just keep it.
why ?
Not because he din't talk with me or fetch me back.
It's because i think about my family was broken.
My friend was betray me.
And would him treat me better than my family and friends?
I really dont know what to do when i know that my friend was betray on me.
Because my family broken. This cannot change. and make me quite suffer sometimes.
My bf . you know i know.
and i tot i still have friends.
The only friends can let me "yi kao".
But at last, my dream was spoil.
Even friends also cannot let me 'yi kao'.
Yes ! Right ! i still have others friend.
But how can i still TRUST my friends?
I ever been this and how can i sure that others wont do this to me next time?
So sorry to my friends.
Not i dont wanna TRUST , just i dont know HOW to TRUST.
Just now.
When im on the way back home.
I feel alone.
Just like everyone leaving me soon.
No family No lovers No friends.
Just like i'm alone in this world.
Feel quite tired.
Tired of my life.
I dont understand why i treat everyone with true heart.
And at last i get HURT from them ?
Who can give me the answer ?
I want to know.
I want to understand.
Isit be a fake people and treat others.
Only will get True heart from them ?
Oh why ?
==''
I need a shoulder .
I need someone who can use true heart to treat people to accompany me.
And i dont even know who can ?
My baby , can you ?
I do hope the people is you.
Really.
I need you.
I'm just same like you.
Dont like the feelings "lonely".
it's really scary for me.
I think you too.
hais ~
hope everythings just pass like this.
Im tired to think about it.
Im tired to care about it.
Just let it be. And FORGET.
It's what i need to do i think ?
stop here.
Just pray to me if you loves me. (:
Feel want to share my feelings here.
'The feelings been betray by friend'
have you ever been this before ?
i think yes ? maybe ?
Hmm. I always treat my friends with true heart.
I admit that , maybe sometimes one of my friends make me feel like fan gan ?
I will really treat you quite bad even not scold you in front others people.
If who never try , can ask my friend - ying wen.
We are best friends.
But she gave me the feelings and now better a lot.
I will never never treat my friends bad until we become starnger.
Maybe i will treat you bad few weeks or few month , but never forever.
I wont. because i hate the feelings actually.
well, come back to my topic.
I love my friends.
As how my baby said : Friends always important than lovers.
fine.
I treat you quite good. This is what i feel.
because i always stand by your side when you're having problem.
Even i will been "kill" from my others friends.
but , i dont mind it.
I just ignore how people say and try to be friend with you.
And finally because of me , they try to be friend with you too.
But at last ....
What respond you gave me ?!
'BETRAY' !
I know it this morning.
My heart been hurt.
Even you are not my lovers.
But you are my friend that who i TRUSTED.
I feel angry but not at all.
I feel very sad because maybe i will lost one friends.
And the most i feel is DISAPPOINTED.
why ?
Im trying my best to change your thinking.
Im trying my best to let others accept you.
Im trying my best to be your friend who can always stand by your side when you need someone.
But you done somethings make me hurt and disappointed.
But i know , i've wrong too.
because i din't try to understand you.
I din't try to understand you are which type of friends.
and now regret it's really toooo late.
Say really , quite hard to put you down.
Because you ever is one of my friend.
And we have the friend feelings.
just like you have feelings with your lovers.
Just the feelings not same.
Fine ! I dont know what im going to do with you.
Im still thinking.
Even you betray me , but i still thinking will you worth me to forgive you?
It's really a high level question for me.
Just now finished school.
I saw my bf .
But we din't talk.
When i saw him , my tears almost drop down.
But i just keep it.
why ?
Not because he din't talk with me or fetch me back.
It's because i think about my family was broken.
My friend was betray me.
And would him treat me better than my family and friends?
I really dont know what to do when i know that my friend was betray on me.
Because my family broken. This cannot change. and make me quite suffer sometimes.
My bf . you know i know.
and i tot i still have friends.
The only friends can let me "yi kao".
But at last, my dream was spoil.
Even friends also cannot let me 'yi kao'.
Yes ! Right ! i still have others friend.
But how can i still TRUST my friends?
I ever been this and how can i sure that others wont do this to me next time?
So sorry to my friends.
Not i dont wanna TRUST , just i dont know HOW to TRUST.
Just now.
When im on the way back home.
I feel alone.
Just like everyone leaving me soon.
No family No lovers No friends.
Just like i'm alone in this world.
Feel quite tired.
Tired of my life.
I dont understand why i treat everyone with true heart.
And at last i get HURT from them ?
Who can give me the answer ?
I want to know.
I want to understand.
Isit be a fake people and treat others.
Only will get True heart from them ?
Oh why ?
==''
I need a shoulder .
I need someone who can use true heart to treat people to accompany me.
And i dont even know who can ?
My baby , can you ?
I do hope the people is you.
Really.
I need you.
I'm just same like you.
Dont like the feelings "lonely".
it's really scary for me.
I think you too.
hais ~
hope everythings just pass like this.
Im tired to think about it.
Im tired to care about it.
Just let it be. And FORGET.
It's what i need to do i think ?
stop here.
Just pray to me if you loves me. (: