The word for the only you ♥
Give me the last chance to call you one more time 'baby'.
baby , today , 8months and 21 days.
you leaved me.
The reason you leaved me, i not really clear.
Because we din't even have the chance to talk about it.
because you dont wannt talk about it with me.
At here , just wanna give you the last explain.
friday Night , my family's problem.
The first i find is you.
And you just like dont care me ?
I dont know ~ Just feel like you not really care me while i told you.
After the 1st called end.
I know it's because we are just kidding.
But your word is quite hurt me , you know , i'm small gas.
Then i call you again.
And this is really....... (hurt).
and after end called.
I keep wait your call.
Until tired and fall asleep.
I keep tell myself, Tomorrow you will find me.
and morning i wake.
no your call or msg.
I just wait.
wait for whole day.
i wait and wait.
I think you still care about me.
sure will call me and ask me fine or not.
But i get nothing.
At night , syuen call me out.
I keep think , wan or not ?
Because i know , you will worry me.
And i never out at night without ask permission from you.
I know if i wanna out must ask you or tell you.
But i keep wait your call and msg.
Still no. I borrow laptop from cousin.
because cannot back home .
I on9 because wan see either you will find me or not.
But you also no find me.
well, i choose for out.
because at home , really suffer for me.
I know i will think much and keep waiting for you.
When on the way out.
Finally i get your call , but it's because of my mum only you call me?
i feel disappointed again.
When i received karen's msg.
I know is you call her find me.
Because she will never find me automatically.
Then i called her , just because want to make sure.
Well, after end call i know i get the answer.
Is you call her to ask where is me.
Then you called me again.
And after the call received your msg and say we stop here.
I stop for a while. and i give the phone to syuen.
When at cc. Sit on the sofa.
Hugging your shirt , and i cried.
Because when daddy throw us out from the home ,
The things i take is your shirt and the present you gave me.
And this is why i have your shirt that time.
I cried in front many people.
And i know i'm very tired.
12am is time to in cinema , we late in because of i dont wanna go in.
At last we late , and we call the worker open back the door for us.
And while i sit down i just listening song with my earphone
hugging your shirt and sleep.
I'm really tired much.
2am finished and reached car park you called me.
3am reached home , 3++ we talked phone.
I asked you .
Why still dont sleep?
You said, wait me , worry me. because i never out until so late.
I shocked , because you say break and you still care for me?
I cry again and i just hide it because i know boys doesn't like girls cry.
called you go sleep, you keep call me leave you alone.
Dont care about you.
How can i do it ?
Do you know ? I will also suffer just like you ?
Today work. Very busy, but will find chance to call you.
I tot okay le? But at last , i just know still the same.
Call you while im working that is only i think tooo much.
And facebook, you said dont want anythings just leave you alone.
well, after the called.
I let you go.
Finally, i let you run away from me.
is it ?
when im typing the message, even it's just a very short message.
But my heart totally broken.
I know i cannot force you again.
So, i just let you go.
Even very hate myself to do so.
But , this is what you want and the best for you.
While typing the message, i tell myself.
'If you loves him,you should let him go,because this is what he want from you'
When the message delivered , i know the one i lovessss much is really leave me le.
Hurt much , But baby , i hope this is really the best for you.
Fight for your life ba (:
I know , still got many girls in this world not only me.
So , you can dont appreciate me.
But , the things i want to tell you is...
I do love you so much.
baby , I ♥ you.
because of ♥ , I rather hurt myself.
I hope this is worth.
because from the moment i fall in love with you.
I know , i will never regret even one day we leave each others.
But i will remember our sweet memories.
I will put it in the deeeeepest place in my heart.
I feel very happy ,at least,
You ever loves me care me and so on.
It's enough for me le.
I must feel very man zhu le.
baby , Thanksss for ever try to loves me and cares me. (:
This is what i will appreciate from you.
And , i think this is the last i can do it for you.
Dont disturb you again? Right ?
(:
Well, i hope you dont mind that.
I wont delete my blog.
I wont delete everythings.
I will just put it there and as a sweet memories for me.
Hope you dont mind.
09.05.2010 Sunday.
8 months 21 days ♥ END.
♥ Nelson Lo Foh Forng always.
我愛我的傢‘白色空間’,因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友