at cyber now.

because my line been cut.

daddy not yet pay it.

so , long time no on9 le.

just want to share somethings here.

22.02.10 Monday.

today school re-open.

quite sad.

aihh~

i hate school life much and much.

cause after cny .

so monday and tuesday our class until 3++

wed and thurs need stay for kokum.

i think only friday saturday and sun can enjoy ?

==''


23.02.10 tues

today i bring phone to school.

Cause at school sure boring.

Then just pass the time as normal.

when 1.40pm we out from class at go take our lunch at canteen.

Cause 2.05 need start our class again.

Then i saw baby's msg.

You say cannot come fetch me cause mummy don't let ?

Then never mind lu cause baby sick too.

Then we sms.

The time is really not enough for us to eat.

Then we eating and sms with baby.

So suffer. ==''

Then baby ask me wan go tanjung aru or not.

I wan i wan i wan !

Cause from i back until now not yet meet my baby.

Then i say yes.

When finished my class.

While waiting school bus me sms with baby too.

Then suddenly you say coming to fetch me.

I tot is your friend drive .

xing there .

he heard me talk phone with baby .

so asked me isit is baby come fetch me.

I say ya.

Then i say maybe is baby's friend come and my baby follow.

But then im wrong !

==''

Baby drive and come fetched me.

Then feel quite happy de.

First time ==''

Baby fetch me back home.

i bath .

Then we go tanjung aru.

6++ baby send me backk.

so happyyy ~ finally can meet my baby.

wuhuu ~


24.02.10 wed

no go school.

lazy + some reason. ==''

just stay at home be pig !

tats all.


25.02.10 thu

As normal go to school.

Quite sienx ==''

just normal day .

26.02.10 fri

today is holiday.

At home super boring.

wan die le ==''

Then keep say this say that.

Cause i cannot tahan le.

haha.

Then baby say come fetch me out.

only this can make me happy today.

HAHAHA.

finally can out.

after yam cha.

Then dont know go where.

round here round there no idea ! ==''

i decide go for movie but not enough time.

baby need go da pang lu.

Then baby fetch me back.

and he back home for prepare.

aww !

can meet baby then enough le (:


27.02.10 Sat

Morning.

10 wake.

prepare everythings then 11++ out.

go 1b.

We reach there then buy movie ticket and direct in lu.

2.30 finished.

Go toilet.

And go sing sing sing.

4.30 finished.

Go eat pizza for our lunch.

After eat.

and cyber. [now]

aihh~

and now chatting with my baby too.

tonight he go his sifu's house overnight.

and tonight busy tomorrow busy.

Dont know when can meet him find him.

TT

monday start exam le.

aihh ~

sad sad sad !

uhh ~!

tats all la.

nothing to say le. (:

bah bye !


wan to say.

I love you baby.

Mwuahs

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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my trip + when come back

18.02.10 Thursday


early morning wake.

go eat then go spring [shopping mall]

with andy , his gf , cousin and me.

Then we go sing k (:

until 5pm.

Then back home.

bath then go cousin house eat.

Cute cousin birth (:

Then back home 10++

tired ~

gamble till 1am++

Then sleep (:

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Today is our 6months anniversary.

happy can pass with you between this 6months. (:

But we cannot celebrate together .

quite sad de (:


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19.02.10 Friday


11 wake.

bath and prepare my things .

cause need back kk le.

Then go out eat .

Then back home again.

continue prepare.

I called daddy .

...dut . dut . dut . ...

Me : hello.

daddy : hello.

Me : daddy , later help me go buy sao mai.

daddy : har? buy for who ?

Me : my bf .

Daddy : your bf ? then next time you will buy for me ma ?

Me : aiya ~ will de la. haha

Daddy : okay la. later i buy .

HAHAHA ~! funny dad ==''

then go spring again.

watch movie (:

Then back home.

take our things go others cousin house.

eat dinner at there .

then almost time go airport.

aww !

a lot cousin come send us .

All hug here hug there ==''

but if you there . you will feel very touch.

Until i cried ==''

when andy hug me , i cry too ==''

then we go airpost lu.

Then reach there check in and bla bla bla.

Then hug my cousin . cry again ==''

super many tears .

feel bu she de ba ^^

Then back here lu.

Anyway thankss to my all cousin.

Miss you all.

Meet you all again next time ^^


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Hmm..

I back kk from kuching le. (:

friday night 9.50pm 's flight.

But delay 10.25pm just flyyy.

so 12++ just reach here ^^

Quite tired too.

We back home put our things then me and mummy go dapau !

super hungry wei ==''

and while waiting it.

My sis told me she at airport take dao one sim card.

Then i try open .

it's CELCOM.

And it's private number.

awww !

Then me be a BAD people. ==''

I used it to play people.

First , i call him.

I no talk cause i cannot talk.

My sound ==''

Dont say this le. xp

Then second , I call my brother. Yang (:

Then i say hello only.

Then i give it to my mummy.

then my mummy talk with him.

haha .

My bro angry wei.

Cause he dont like people play him.

Then i take back the phone.

And tell him.

Me : gor !!!

Yang : who are you ?

Me : I'm jessy . hmm

Yang : just now that one is ??

Me : my Mummy !

Yang : OMG ~! your mummy ? shocked me ! help me say sorry sorry to her.


XD. hahaha ~ he say first time talk to someone's mummy.

Keep apologise.

So funny derh him. keep say xia dao him.

Ahahaha ~

After the mee ok le.

Then backk home.

eat eat eat !

waoo ~!

one word to describe the feelings.

SHUANG ~!

then change shirt sleep.

zzz... ngok ngok ngok.

Then morning [saturday].

12pm++ wake.

bath . eat . out.

go 1b .

i go buy ticket .

Actually decide one people watch derh.

But sis wan watch too so just let her. ==

1.40 start.

still got time.

so i go here go there .

see here see there .

Nothing can see le ==''

finally time's up !

then i buy le some food and drinks.

go in ~

.........watching movie......

hahaha ! quite funny ==''

then 3++ finished.

when i out.

so ngam !

Got lion dance ~!

Then see xia see xia.

4++ daddy say wan back le.

reach home tired.

sleep again.

7 wake.

Then go cousin house eat (:

aww ! saw my super cute cousin again.

Xp love him so much de. phewww !

Then eat eat eat . so delicious.

After eat . play with my cute cousin a while.

Then start ...GAMBLE...

actually a bit scare de.

cause at kuching gamble lose 99.

haha .

But never mind la.

Just play lu.

Also lose =='' really super unlucky.

But lose bit bit nia la. ^^

then 11++ reach home.

Quarrel with him again ==''

Just because a super small case.

But these few days he really make me feel like ..

er.. dont know how say ? like his heart no more jessy ng this people ==''

i dont know is me think too much or what .

Just the feelings keep make me feel very bu an TT

Then i send you a message and i close my phone.

i dont know why i want to close my phone.

Just my feelings call me do this.

then i closemy phone.

stopped thinking and sleep.

morning i wake.

9am++ i open my phone.

Saw your message .

Feel heart pain. maybe for you i treat you not good.

but then still got one message is sorry.

I dont know what do you mean.

and one is others people message ==''

I replied and i close back.

continue sleep ==''

12++ wake.

bath . then open back my phone and replied d people message.

Then go down eat.

2pm ++ send my taiwan's cousin go airport they wan back there le.

then back home.

do homework a while .

Then sing .

sound not good still sing. cause i wan practice . ==''

then on9 and type blog.

just now 3++ text you and say sorry.

and you replied say nvm you forget it le.

hmm

and you told me you saw her.

i just replied oh (:

Then you say no talk with her.

I still reply one oh .

Then you changed topic.

guy ! please. next time dont need tell me these type of things.

non of my business ==''

it only hurt me , you know ?

but never mind la.

You always hurt me and you don't know. (:

suan le ba ~

just accept it.

aihh ~

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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hurt

hey guys !

meet you all again (:

actually wanna share it last night .

but really no mood even no energy to type here .

I'm really suffer much . LAST NIGHT . (:

yesterday i out and im really happy that we better le.

cause you no training le.

And only left these few days you can accompany me.

And i think saturday start then you will be very very very busy le ?

Hm.. but then at night. i reached my others cousin house.

We still laugh here laugh there with my cousin (:

And i sms with you. It make me feel happy more.

Because you're accompany me.

Then i told you i want to webcam with you when i backkk.

But then what you answer me ?

'see first la. maybe i have out.'

Hmm. when i see this sentence .

My mood direct down until i act smile act im happy when chit chat with cousin.

because if i direct change they will ask me (:

Then i start say you.

Keppp say this say that .

Say that you promised me you will sleep b4 12am.

But you break promise.

Then you just apologise.

But how is my mood do you know it ?

i think.... you dont know ?

it's ok never mind ba !

then we start quarrel.

And i say forget i ever say dont wanna control you.

Im reallyyyy forget about it.

Maybe already xi guan.

But you say you feel sad when i say i dont wanna control you.

But if i control you , you say me control you.

My soi yong start again.

then , you tell me what i should do la ?

This cannot that cannot .

Hmm.

Then we stop .

and my dad say put my phone at my cousin there.

Hmm.. my phone sick le.

Then i let my phone leave me without telling him.

I reached home.

Is really tired much.

After done all things.

everyone close light sleep.

and me open my laptop and on9.

But then im shocked when you find me and tell me you're back.

That time you invite me open webcam and im playing game.

I accept it and i cannot see your msg cause i cannot stop the game.

After finished it then i read it .

You close it and from your word i feel you're sad ?

That only the feelings i found in your word.

But i dont know it's true or not ?

Hmm. then we chat .

And i say i wan to solve the problem.

we start say .

And your every word hurt me and hurt me non- stop .

Even im hurt much i dont wanna listen i wan to stop it.

But i keeepp control myself and i wan to continue it cause i wan to solve.

When chatting with you my tears keppp falling down.

My heart keeppp bleeding blood.

do you know how is the feelings ?

You say this to me.

'i wan do what i wan. i wan out then out . i wan late sleep then late sleep. this you let me and others i follow you'

Have a couple will say these word to their partner?!

Hmm. when i see this ~ what i feel ?

Im not a gf for you in your heart.

Maybe im just a very very stupid girl.

your every word just hurt me deep and deep.

You say you cannot give me happiness .

You say you cannot give me blessful.

alright ~

you say you just telling me but no others mean.

You make me feel.

You want to leave me.

LEAVE ME !

LEAVE ME !

oh well .

after that .

I just follow what you want.

cause i always scare to lost you.

always and always .

So i justt keeppp follow what you wan and always let you.

I love you so much.

What choice ?

Just accpet you are this type of guy la !

Hm..

I say , angry , heart pain , disappointed.

Never mind.

The importance is you happyy.

But i think our love will become very worse than b4.

because our love become a selfish love.

And selfish love never never will happy and blissful.

our love between us just because a word freedom and care become worse and worse.

You say you know i care you scare you have anythings happen when you out at night.

You say dont worry you know how to take care yourself.

But we are justtt normal human.

We cannot know what happen the next.

Even you take care yourself.

But accident always happen like this without giving people an alert.

so even you say dont worry i still worry.

You are the one i love so much.

how come i can put 100 heart just let you always out until tooo late.

And late sleeeppp really not good for you.

You already 18 years old.

should know how to think mature le.

sorry for say like this.

Just hope you understand it.

you know ?

i can do everythings for you.

if i can.

just what i hope ?

You happy and enjoy your life.

I hope i can be a good gf for you.

In your mind im a gf who will giving more loves to you.

And giving more cares for you.

From the day i fall in love with you until now.

I keepp on practice myself.

Keep learn things and read your mind.

I think i have improve a bit bit .

But last night from your word.

Finally i know.

Im still the same like last time.

No any improve and become more worse.

awwwww !

Im really feel disappointed on myself.

Sorry guy im still cannot be a gf for a boys.

I know (:

Just forgive me.

waste your times together with me.

waste alot money for me.

Is really sorry much.

Last night ,

In my mind just

'nelson lo leaving me soon'

the word keep appear in my mind and i cannot shake it out .

well.

Just nothing to say about it le la (:

The things i need to do just follow what you wan.

And it's also the only things i can do and nothing ^^



Today i went to a very special gift shop.

The gift shop just very nice and cute (:

when i go in then i dont feel wan to out from there le.

I saw a lot special things from there.

And many things is make by themselves.

awwwww !

When i saw that.

I feel quite special . cause i can D I Y myself.

Then the first i think is you you you.

just shhhh ~

nothing to continue le.

My heart just broken much.

And i just can cover it with my tears.

this is what i choose for.

And i cannot blame you or others (:

aiks ~

stop here la.

anyway just wan to say

I do love you so much my beloved (:

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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worry

hello.

just wan to say somethings here . (:

when im in kuching , i feel that our ju li become more far and far.

But i just know that we trust each others .

saturday you busy .

I tot only saturday, cause you dint ever tell me about it.

When sunday morning i wake text you .

I reached airport i text you i reached kuching i text you

And i keep on waiting your msg .

Until afternoon. i think it's time for you to wake le.

But you still no msg me.

Until night i just know you also have performance .

you dint tell me and i dont know.

This always make me worry.

sunday after you reached home.

we sms .

and i tell you

you can dont find me between this two weeks.(the times me at kuching)

cause i know you sure busy much

Then you say no le.

Monday start then just training.

Hmm~

feel better a bit.

kays ~

is time to sleep.

morning wake le text you and i wait you wake.

and hao hao chat with you.

cause two days le no chat with you.

Then 11++ you text me say wake le.

But then when i reply then you no reply le.

i kepppp wait and still no.

I calll you just know that you sleep backkk

kays . i call you continue sleep.

then almost 4 you still no find me.

feel weird then text you

hmm.. you just wake.

chat at msn a while you say wan out le.

ok then

i msg you we sms a while

then suddenly you no reply me.

aiks ~

until 7++ you say you training and you go.

i know you everytime after training is almost 9.30

But over that you still no find me.

Then i text you no reply.

i start worry.

And now 12am .

i text you again AGAIN !

and you finally replied me and say you have meeting just now.

(:

well,

you always no tell me and make me just worry like a crazy girl.

people talk to me and i just act smile and i dont really hear to them.

even shopping

also like lazyy wan to walk no mood wan to see that see this.

hmm

just find a place and drinks .

people shopping and i wait them.

the restaurant quite special.

And i know at kk dont have such restaurant (:

well, say really quite sad and disappointed.

but i just tryyyy my best to ti liang you.

because i know you really busy with lion dance.

and you sure tired much with it.

but even that i still hope you can at least send ONE msg to me.

and tell me.

i think ONE msg no need waste so much time?

hmm~

suan le ba .

maybe this is my own problem too ?

maybe ?

maybe ?

and maybe ?

aiks ~

okay la ~

stop here

nothing can say le.

just i really miss him.

):

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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Just finished chat with jing jie (:

Just wan to say somethings.

I dont hate her.

But i feel very fan gan with her.

And maybe it's because her action make me feel bs.

And because i bs so when we quarrel and it become fan gan.

now i dint do anythings to you is really good le.

Please dont yao qiu me to treat you nicely .

Now i just be silent no scold no talk bad or anythings.

So please understand la dont blame me.

And about at canteen is really dont know why i say so.

I cannot control ?

maybe your action really make me feel ..

aihh ~

dont know how describe.

okay la ! nvm dont talk about it.

well,

Thursday, i met my baby .

Actually i think b4 i go back cannot meet him le.

cause he no car .

Hmmp ~!

friday i need stay backk and saturday (today) he busy much.

And sunday i need to go le.

But lucky and lucky thursday he can out .

11++ he already at cp and i still at school.

Just sms with him (:

I know im bad student . XD

Thenn i wait the time's up !

awww ! finally finished school.

And i go cp .

change cloth and buy somethings to make d present for him (:

thenn when i buying things.

from the shop i feel like he is near .

Then i look out and i saw him come down from upstair !

i shocked then i run out .

And chased him. Then i called him.

He shocked ! haha.

Quite funny ! many people looked at me. == paiseh *

then he go play pool and me buy things and go eat with ying.

Oh yah ! meet jie too (:

Then after eat baby say need bring me go city mall le.

Then go see xia my jie fu.

long time no meet him.

Then i go with baby.

hmmp ~!

my baby become more cute and shuai le wei !

ngahahaha !

dont happy till flyy ahh ! xp

then reached city mall.

help baby choose shirt but hard ==''

You also dont know what you wan to wear ~

hmmp~

just simply buy lu (:

Then nothings to see le.

5++ we back. TT

awww ! feel sad ! after back then cannot meet for two weeks le.

Then baby accompany me sit at back.

Hmmp~

Baby ask 'dont wan take picture?'

wah ~ i shock baby will say this.

Haha ~ cause baby dont like to take picture.

everytime wan take picture sure naughty wont let me take.

Then take pic with baby .

And i keep on hug him. TT

Cause bu she de him my baby. TT

sad wei !

Then reached my home.

He gave me present (:

Valentine present.

feel happy much !

Thankssss baby (:

B4 go in my house , i hug him tight tight .

Then start feel wan to cry le.

But i dint (:

Then go back room , i started make d present.

Make make make ! untill 8++ then i go bath and eat

9 started make again until 10++ then finally done !

waoo ! it's quite simple and not very nice !

but hope baby will like it (:

I dont know how give baby. ):

hmmp~

Today today ~

finished school.

i take d present for xing and ask him help me to give baby.

actually say when i back just give by myself.

But ying them say late le not good.

so no choice i just call xing help and i also hope baby can fast fast see it.

hmmp ~!

today ~

baby whole day no find me . ):

i text him also no reply.

last night you almost 3 just reached home.

LAst night i dint sleep well.

1am 2am 3am 4am wake

again and again~

finally 3 when i wake i saw your msg you say you just reached home.

I feel sad. and a bit angry ? hmmp~

then i reply and you dint reply le.

maybe you sleep le (:

Then until now night le. 8pm still no saw his msg.

Feel quite down de.

just now afternoon early back home cause today early finished school.

I feel hard to pass cause no him ):

then i just read my novel and make myself sleepy then sleep.

Then wake.

on9 .

hmmp~

later need bath and prepare things le.

and early sleep.

cause 4am need wake le.

5am need reach airport ~

hmm~

i think i will cry ? when im in aeroplane ?

I will miss him , my brother , my sister and also my friend (:

And the most still is him my beloved. ):

Hope after back can fast fast meet him and hug him tight tight .

Awwww !

now still waiting for his msg. ):

will him find me today ?

or i need to wait until tomorrow i reached there shopping afternoon he wake just find me?

I dont know ~

TT

well,

hope he saw the valentine present that i make for him.

And he like it (:

It's make by myself with my sincere heart (:

Mwuahs baby ~

I love you !

Wait me back and give me a big big hug ! ^^

Okay la ~

stop here need go bath le ^^

byeeee ~

if im free at there i will come to share with you all about what happened at there .

Wait me ! (:

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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