HURT

you treat me like this again.

hey!

do you know it's hurt ?

why you like never know what i feel ?

do you really love me?

sometimes i really feel that you not that love me.

is this really ?

i scare.

really scare one day you will leave me.

but i just can pray for it .

i just know .

i love you more than you love me.

you make me sad again .

TT

haix ~

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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worry hubby

Today morning ,

when i wake then direct see my phone.

see you have find me or not.

because last night i keep call you.

but cannot , sms you.

dint reply me.

i worry much ~

then just now afternoon,

when i saw your message.

i feel better le, you apologise with me.

but i know somethings bad.

im worry about you.

and i feel heart pain. TT

hubby,

do you know how is the feelings ?

hope you know it ~

now we better le la ^^

thanks hubby ^^

mwuahx~

just now i know jie with zako have somethings happen .

luckily solve it all le ^^

thanks jie,

you still remember what we ever promised each others.

^^

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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IT'S HURT

Hubby ,

i don't know what happen to you.

But i am trying to become a good gf for you

from yesterday start then you treat me very cool.

i asked you.

isit you bad mood,

but you say NO .

so i just can guess isit any bad things happened on you ?

last night i really feel wan to cry because how you treat me.

we just together 11days.

then you start treat me like this le.

i really don't know isit i had done any wrong things ?

you gave a feelings that you will leave me soon.

i have told you this,

but you say is me think too much.

i asked,

hubby, you love me ?

you answer me .

"sure love lah . don't ask about this le la."

what a ******** answer !

the answer just like you "fu yan" me.

can i think like this ?

ok then i just tell myself don't think too much.

i try my best to cheer myself up.

between this i just pretend i am happy when sms with you.

but when the time we have to say GOOD NIGHT to each others.

feel very an wei because you still remember this.

and feel better after this.

then i slept .

just now morning .

when i wake.

i have send a message for you.

But i know you're still sleeping.

just send a message for you after i wake already become my habit .

so i just can wait your reply when you wake.

when i receive your message ,

me chit chat with ying wen at my shop.

then i called you.

then we sms .

at first still normal.

but after that i dont know why suddenly we change .

stopped sms .

that time me at cyber playing SDO .

after that then follow ying wen's car back her home.

when reached her home.

while waiting she bath.

then i on9 .

that time start .

CB !

mood sibeh down .

dont know what happened

when lee ting saw my pm, then she find me.

and care about me.

Thanks my friend .

she console me .

but i really dont have any mood listen to her.

and think so much.

i just blurr .

aiks ~

gastrick..

OUCCHH !!

SHIT MAN !

hate it so much ==

haix~

hubby ah ,

i really dont know what to do le ah.

im trying to become a good gf for you le.

but the respond just like i never do my best .

everytime you moody or treat me so cool,

then i will tam you ahh .

and treat you as normal.

but when i moody,

you never feel it and know it.

and everytime when i hope you will tam me.

but you never.

just like just now.

i just play play say dont care you le.

i think you will tam me or what .

but you dint .

you just say "ok,bb"

omg !

do you know it's hurt ?

but i never tell you im hurt because b4 we together .

you ever told me that you scare i will hurt .

so i scare if i tell you, i will lose you.

so im confused what to do.

but NO IDEA !

suan le ba ~

just wan to say

"HUBBY, I LOVE YOU ."

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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Meet with hubby ^^

oh ouuu !

Today i have out oh ~

actually wan meet with hubby de.

but when im waiting for my dad bring me go warisan.

then my mummy's staff called her and say she cannot go work !

SHIT MAN !

then i need to care shop for today le. TT

pity oh .

because b4 i out dint eat breakfast wa !

so when i reach shop really hungry much le.

but i saw my sis jolin there.

then she accompany me go open my shop and accompany me there for awhile.

haha.

thanks jie much wa !

jolin sis really so naughty ah !

she always play my hubby le yer.

make till i keep on laughing there.

haha. really so happy that jie accompany me and make me happy yer .

=)

after mommy go shop.

then i direct out le.

because whole day in shop really boring much and sleepy.

haha.

then i go cp take the picture that take with ying wen yesterday,

when i out from there.

whootss ~

so ngam !

meet my hubby there ah !

haha.

we talked awhile.

then i go back shop lo.

after that hubby go jolin's shop find us ahh =D

then accompany hubby luo.

^^

waoo !

before hubby go.

he gave me a kiss.

the first kiss by hubby .

mwuahx~

love hubby so muchhie ah =D

today really happy ah !

meet with hubby

and jolin jie accompany me.

chit chat with me when im boring and lonely there.

TT

touch ah !

love jie too ah .

mwuahx ~


^^

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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Happy birth to audrey =D

O H Y E A H !

yesterday finally i out !

XD

so happy eh .

because ah , this holiday really boring much.

even have a bf now ==

but the life still same .

B O R I N G ! !

yesterday actually wan go pu tuo shi .

because vun loong ah gor call me go ah !

actually i wan go de ah.

but i put his aeroplane ah !

sorry ah gor ^^

because yesterday mommy's shop no staff ah .

so i go help her care shop lu.

but when mommy in shop ,

i sure wont guai guai stay at shop lo.

haha.

ying wen have go find me oh.

then we go centre gai gai ah !

quite happy de.

hohoho !

today is audrey's birth wa !

happy birthday to her !

^^

maybe tomorrow we out together ah !

go 1b celebrate with her

whootss ~

but today my hubby date me out.

dont know can or not .

TT

hope can la yer .

miss him so much ahh !!

XD

ok la.

nothing to say jor la.

bb ^^

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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Heart pain.

Feel heart pain .

TT

just now ,

jie online ,

finally she online.

and she find me chat lo.

when we chat , i feel that jie keep act she is fine.

just same as gor .

when jie ask how is me ah.

and call me take care gor or what what what.

i really feel very heart pain.

TT

but ,

i know it is not related with me.

so i cannot do anythings,

just can respect to both of you.

jie told me that she always busy on work now .

she say like this will help her to dont think about the pain.

worry about her aiks ~

hope she really will take care herself and be fine oh.

Gor too,

he smoke again.

but he have explain to me say,

he is because too fan just do that.

so i dint blame him la.

just hope he can faster stop it lo.

aihhhx ~


hope gor and jie really can be fine .

TT

muii will accompany both of you,

if both of you need me =)

love gor and jie.

mwuahx ^^

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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Boring holiday !

Holiday really boring oh haih ~

nothing can do .

actually saturday wan out with ting ~

but after that also canceled le.

reason is :

1. H1N1

2. lazy

3. Time problem

but sunday have out yam cha with friend la.

luckily oh yer !

if not i will ki siao soon ==

dont know when wan meet with friend go watch movie again.

XD

hope as fast as possible,

because always at home.

really boring,

everyday the same things,

1. sleep

2. eat

3. on9

4. sms

5. read novel

O M G !

everyday also the same !

nothing special .

TT





MISS

my brother !

yen dao gor gor !

few days no saw him le aihh ~

TT




MISS

my dear too !

even we just meet up on sunday !

i still miss him .

=)

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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finally my hubby is fine .

Y E A H !

finally my hubby is fine .

hohoho !

so happy le yer =D

Thanks ah laogong !

mwuahx ~

^^

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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finally you wake .

Finally you wake .

but you like still not ok owh.

haih ~

W O R R Y - I N G

TT

what happen to you actually?

you dont tell me.

how i help you ?

how we solve it together ?

if not ,

you wan me everyday face the moody you mea?

you say dont know why mood suddenly very down .

aiks ~

never mind ba.

i'll try my best to cheer you up.

=D

because i love you hubby !

mwuahx ~

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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MOODY !

MOODY !

today my mood very down .

not today only, yesterday too.

yesterday we have meet .

but we just talk a while only.

i dont know what happen to you actually.

you no tell me.

ask you isit is me make you unhappy ?

you say no.

you angry me.

cheat me say no angry me.

you know how the feel ma ?

last night i feel not well.

then you like this again.

make my mood really damn down.

shit man !

but never mind .

i know you unhappy even you dont wanna tell me.

i always try my best and best cheer myself up

then go tam you.

because im your gf.

i have to be a good gf to you.

very glad to know that you still remember what you ever promised me.

last night you dint out.

but i feel curious that,

have you sleep early at home ?

or moody out again ?

i dont know.

but i choose to trust you.

you will stay at home at the whole night even you're moody .

today when i wake .

i have send a message for you.

but you dint reply.

maybe you still sleeping .

then i on9.

saw your pm write "what i gonna do ? moody "

aihhx ~

i just can wait you wake with a shit mood.

then write my feelings here .

haih ~

hubby . i hope you can trust me .

if anythings just tell me .

i can accompany you and listen to you.

hope later you wake,

you will find me.

and tell me.

you better le.

i'll pray for it .

i love you my hubby !

mwuahx

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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worry about you.

aihhx ~

worry about you now.

you say wan F I G H T ?

omg !

nvm ba.

you just take care lu.

i cannot how ahh !

he is your BROTHER !

so help him also true der.

But , if can meh use MOUTH to solve it lo.

better than fight ma .

Because i really worry you much TT

SCARE - ing .

hope you wont get hurt ah !

love you my HUBBY !

mwuahx

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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please STOP blame me and zat me

Today , finally i say out all my feelings.

because it really make me quite suffer .

two also is my friend.

you all wont feel very tired de mea?

always quarrel and keep on saying people at the back.

ok, nvm.

you all wan say nvm.

but can don't say her bad in front of me ma?

she also my friend.

when you all saying her bad.

i really don't know what should i say or anythings else.

then both of you also my friend.

have you all ever think what the feelings i having now ?

haihh~

when i follow her, then you all start blame me.

and keep zat me. damn !

i really hate those feelings.

sometimes i will follow her ,

because when i follow her.

she wont say both of you derh bad things.

right ! she have say about both of you.

but she just say about the past .

the time you all still friend.

so please STOP blame me and zat me !

because you all never think about my feelings.

actually i think that my best friend ying vun will understand !

but, i wrong ! she also dont even understand the situation i having now !

it's ok .

never mind !

when you all will think !

know how to THINK !

then will understand what you all had done !

the CHILDISH things

the UNMATURE things

aihh~

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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世界上什么心最美？

世界上什么心最美？

我爱你的心最美 =D

I LOVE YOU MY DEAR~

MWUAHX

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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I TRUST MY BF

为什么每一段感情都这样？

咳~

才跟他在一起一天罢了

就听到他的是非。

但是， 过去了，

我不想知道。

因为都过去了，

我相信他。

虽然有一天，

我发现我错了。

我也不会后悔，

因为这是我自己选的，

所以现在我宁愿相信他，

也不要听别人说他是非。

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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I ♥ HIM

18.08.09

is The day we together .

I love Him .

and im very happy that finally I give up my ex.

Because of him =D

Thx him a lot ^^

I love you my dear .

mwuahx ~

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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confused of love

Im very confused about love

haih ~

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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Sick TT

Sick le.

aihh ~

fever.

just now morning at school still ok.

Because our class so many pancaragam's member .

they have some program today.

so a lot people not in class.

Teacher dint teach.

just give us do revision by ourselves.

But, my friend and I just chit chat there.

suddenly i feel not well.

i asked my friend.

she say i fever already.

then report teacher

whootss ~!

that teacher so bad.

fast fast tiak me back .

macam i get H1N1.

==

then i say wait recess lu.

But she dont give lo.

because need buy drink for ah gor ah.

Promised him le ah.

good lei me . XD [ss-ING]

after take the drink for him.

then i go take memo from principle and call mommy come fetch me.

when reach home.

then direct sleep.

cox really tired + feel very weak ah.

cold also. aiks ~

hand pain also wa.

肿 le owh !

TT

pain dao sii ~!!

when im sleeping dream dou someone lagi ==

first time.

im so shock that ~

after wake up.

sit on sofa a while.

then on9 le luo =D

hope i can recover as fast as possible.

Pray for me ba ^^

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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i ♥ him

i ♥ him

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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Finally, you come back =D

Finally, every things is fine.

I'm happy about it =D

Thanks to you.

and don't blame yourself anymore.

You dint done anythings wrong too.

Finally, you come back to me

whoottss ~

XD

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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....16.08.2009

Today,

am i fine ?

i don't know too.

just now online,then saw your personal message.

apologise with someone.

but i don't know is that for me or not?

you away, so just can wait you back.

then find gor chat,

we dint hao hao chat very long xia le.

Because he every time don't know busy what .

so every night just a good night to him =D

today, i feel better than last night le.

so i find him.

if i not good, sure i wont find him.

i know he don't like. so i cheer myself up just now.

after i feel better then i find him chat.

i am very shock.

he tell me the all things that i never know.

F I N A L L Y ! i know.

his life not that easy as what i think before.

when you telling me,

i feel very sad, i cannot help you anythings.

Just can be a good listener for you.

you say never mind.

you no need people advise you.

just need a person listen to you.

YES ! i can be !

=D

i feel that you are very suffer on this relation.

you try your best be a good bf for sis.

try your best don't listen to others who saying her bad in front of you.

try your best to let her know your sincere.

try your best ACT NOTHING in front of anyone even you're suffering !

It's really suffer to do that.

gor, you really strong le.

but i really feel sad and heart pain when i know how suffer you are.

i don't know jie understand all the things you done for her or not.

but i hope she will understand it. and try to think of you.

Right,

爱情里没有谁对谁错

但是,两个人在一起就要懂得体谅对方

如果只有一方努力,不管这感情在怎么坚强

都有倒塌的一天.

因为, 没有一个人能够承担属于两个人的责任.

Now, i know how many does gor done for jie.

But i don't know how many have jie done for gor.

because jie never tell me too.

so i cannot say what.

because maybe Jie also feel suffer with this relation.

可能你也有付出,但是付出的却没另一伴多.

所以, 让两个人都辛苦.

可能, 你们两个都觉得自己在默默的为对方付出.

可是,你们却没想过可能对方付出的比自己还多.

Only this i can say.

Because i really don't know what to say le.

the problem that i never tried before.

I just hope both of you Can be fine and happy.

Gor, if next time you still need ppl listen to you.

Dont forget me ah .

I'll try my best and best to be a jin ho listener for you =)

Jie too. okays ?

Mwuahx

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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we are stranger.

Today,

actually decide wan sleep early.

but, i dint !

because him.

actually when we are sms.

i already feel sleepy much.

but i dint say out.

i just say waiting he back home.

im hungry too.

because everytime when im hungry at midnight then i will sleep.

but i dont care.

after you back home.

we chat.

then from the moment.

i know i should forget it all.

thats really not like you.

just like a people that i first day know him.

and i really shock when the "SECOND" you come out.

i still ask you. "THIS IS REAL YOU?"

luckily you will say NO !

haih ~

i really dont know what to do le.

facing this type of you.

i really feel tired much.

and confused.

but i cannot control you.

because this is your business.

wheter you wan change or not.

i feel that you always cheating on yourself.

but you dont admit it !

well,

it's just up to you.

because i already done what i need to do.

apologise.

cheer you up.

care for you.

but you are still the same.

so, one word.. "TIRED"

im HUMAN too man !

got feelings too.

hope you can think clearly about our relationship.

Because the ball is in your hand now.

what you wan to do the next, it's looking for what you wan.

so think clearly la.

im ok here.

because i really lazy to care about any relation problem.

it's really suffer and tired .

so if can solve then i will use the most easy way to solve.

if cannot then i have to put down.

just let you all do what you all wan.

Before i break the relation with anyone of my friend.

if i have done anythings wrong,

i will apologise first.

just say GOODBYE.

if not, i will feel more confused and suffer.

this is the way i solve the relation problem now.

i just wan a normal life.

i know "QUARREL" is very normal to human.

It's the way make us become mature and get more experience.

so,i have the style to solve my problem.

if you all dont like.

i just can say a "SORRY".

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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accept it.

Im regret to do that .

but nothing can return .

so i just can accept it.

even i know it's hurt to me.

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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worry about you

worry about you.

hope you can be fine.

i just can say this to you.

because i really dont know what to say le.

haih ~

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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I hate myself =( because i really stupid much.

omg !

JESSY NG !

what you have write in your blog ?

you really stupid much .

TT

sorry.

i really feel sorry to him.

Thx Joanne call me read back my blog.

i really dont know what im doing,thinking or anything else.

come scold me.

scold me much much.

until i awake.

until i know what im doing im thinking !

you hate my brother.

i cannot control you,

because that is you.

but why i will because of this treat you like this ?

because this small things i lost a friend.

i feel regret much .

really !

but now what can i do ?

nothing ?

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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i lost you already ?

i LOST you already ?

hope NO !

but, i think i should accept the fake already !

yea ! right !

I LOST YOU ALREADY !

TT

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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[Be H A P P Y ! ] to myself =D

BE HAPPY !

this is the word i wan to tell myself today.

Thx my friend ciwa !

you make me awake.

thanks you very much !

i hope you dont always moody too.

It's not good for us.

you make me awake.

so you have to tell yourself BE HAPPY too.

=D



After say Thanks to my friend.

i wan to say "SORRY MY FRIEND" too.

last night,

after i know it.

i really feel sad !

i dint hate you or blame you .

Just, i really hard to accept it !

hope you can understand it .

i think after i told you that.

you can felt that my brother really important to me.

I LOVE HIM !

so when i ask.

DO YOU HATE HIM ?

your answer really make me feel like .

haih ~

i dont know how to say .

i know after i know the answer i treat you very cool.

because that time i really confused .

maybe i do that make you feel hurt.

i really feel sorry to you after i chat with ciwa .

thx her make me awake.

if not i think i will lost you this friend.

S O R R Y !

hope you can forgive me.

TT

i will try my best dont think that you hate my brother.

i know it's hard.

but i will try my best .

hope i can know the reason why you hate him.

will you tell me ?

***************

I WAIT !

again,

SORRY MY FRIEND !

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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Baby,i love you

___Baby, I ♥ YOU___

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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最近，我怎么了？

现在的我，

就在没有灯光，

没有一丝温度的空间里，

在我的部落格，

写下我的心情。

最近，我怎么了？

我没失恋，

什么也没有，

可是，心情总是徘徊在...

开心与伤心之间。

那种讨厌的感觉又出现在我的生活里了吗？

那种孤单的感觉，

没人疼的感觉，

冰冷的感觉，

真的很讨人厌。

我恨 ！

可是我没办法摆脱。

注定吗？

虽然“你”说，

有你陪我，

有你疼我，

可是心里那种挥之不去的感觉，

你懂吗？

你不懂，

你也不了解，

因为你并没有真正尝试来了解我，

关心我。

一句谢谢还是得说，

谢谢你 !

至少，你比其他人好!

会说，

你会陪我，

疼我。

但是，

只有你。

只有你一个！

我相信，

有一天，

你会比其他人更了解我，

因为，你的话，

让我对你有了信任。

希望你不会是下一个伤害我的人。




















♥Baby J♥

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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Jie, do you know it's very hurt ?

Jie,

do you know it's hurt ?

i dont know what happen between you and gor gor.

i know you're sad and confused.

im trying my best to care for you,

cheer you up.

when i know you do those stupid things,

i really worry about you.

i tell you.

DONT DO THAT.

but, you hurt me.

your word hurt me that much.

Do you know it ?

i use my sincere to care for you,

but what you had done to me?

i really feel sad and disappointed.

first time,

Because of you.

my tears drop down.

sorry, disturb you.

take care my sis.

hope you can be fine.

我才知道，

爱情的力量有多大。

我才知道，

原来，

爱情的力量大到可以那么轻易的就伤了人心。

爱情，

真的很可恶 ！

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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Finding job

Finding job now =D

because i like work.

At home really boring.

But, dont worry.

i will start my work after PMR =D

After Pmr i have alot of things wan to do.

Work ah,

learn make cake and a lot a lot la =D

hope the time can fast fast pass .

hohoho !

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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STATUS : MOODY

aiks ~

feel moody again TT

same as my friend [CIWA] le.

we same

always unhappy without reason.

why ?

who can answer me.

i really feel boring with this feelings le.

very sienz.

it's really suffer when moody without any reason la.

haih ~

TT

i need you all .

today at school.

i console my friend.

but i cnt console myself.

why ?

really feel curious about myself la.

haih ~

i dont know what to do le

no idea .

aiks TT

i will try my best to cheer myself up.

hope i can do it.

pray for me ba.

my friend,

ciwa .

hope you can cheer yourself up too.

we add oil together =D

i will pray for you too.



gor,

just now read your blog.

you also feelings down without any reason right ?

aiks ~

hope you feel better le.

happy ba.

smile =D

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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