30 MAY 2011.
I'll never forget.
He fetch me out as normal.
Go city mall meet ah lo and stella.
After that back my beloved house.
We're sweet with each others.
But then, we changed again.
I saw those things.
How hurt am i.
I know if i call him to throw,
Then im the one who be bad person.
So, I just called him to throw mine.
The things i gave him from we together untill now.
I wan to throw and he stopped me and take it back.
We keep repeated this action.
And at last he is getting more angry.
He shouted at me and i just stand there and keep silent.
After that, i sit on the floor and i cried.
I cried why im jealous for those things and it's still my wrong?
No one can accept i think ?
So... it's include me too.
I Don't even can accept it.
He said just saved it as a memory.
But, if a person not care not have any feelings then wont mind about those past too.
but he still saved it ?
How can i accept?
I thought that we will break up because of those things.
But the one who make this relation break still is me.
My jealousy..
At last, I'm wrong.
He help me put the medicine on my wound.
and he called me to stop cry.
He hug me up.
That moment.. I got the feelings like wan to give up our relation.
Because i'm small gas and easy jealous.
This always make us quarrel.
And he cannot accept my jealousy and small gas.
How can we still continue this relation if he cannot accept my defect?
He asked me a question.
"Can you give me one more chance?If yes you kiss me."
I stopped for a while and i kiss him.
I choose for giving him a chance because i love him.
I'm still the same cannot let this relation break.
After i kissed him.
He cried too.
He said : "When i saw you found those things,in my heart,i know it's gonna end soon.I thought you won't kiss me. But you done it. You kissed me. I feel touch. "
This is what he told me.
And we cried together.
This is first time i saw he cry and this is first time we cried together.
After that, he told me, he will throw all the things because he doesn't want we keep because of those things and get quarrel.
I hope he will do what he said to me.
And i hope the chance i gave to him is worth.
I Hope our relationship can be more stable.
And i done what i promised him.
Because i love him and i hope he will do what he promised me too.
We are sweet after the arguement.
I love him. I appreciate him.
