end up?

Is it end up will better for you?

I face this problem again.

Last time, after solved.

I tot you will slowly find back the feelings.

And wont face about break again.

But i think im wrong.

You like never try to find back the feel.

You just do what a bf need to do.

Thats all.

And now you started to treat me cool.

Cool and cool.

And me....

hurt and hurt.

well,

I think that you are waiting me to say out break.

Is that really?

And i think that you will never regret without me.

Feel like wan to let you go.

But i scare after i lost you , i will regret.

And tahan few days and find you back.

I hate this type of me.

If i say out le.

Can i break myself to dont find you back and disturb you?

arggghhh ~

i think this question for few days already.

But i still cannot get the answer.

What should i do?

What you wan actually ?

hais ~

tomorrow you are going to pulau play.

well,

you take care.

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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♥ ...

你跟我说，读完form5 最好继续读书。

不要先做工，会很辛苦很累。

可是不知道为什么，我想试试看体会你的辛苦

而选择读完form5就做工

其实，其中一个原因跟你一样，

我怕读到一半不想读，毕竟，我也不喜欢读书

可是如果读些自己喜欢的科目，会比较好吗？

算了，还有时间慢慢想

做对的选择

可是，还是很想体会你的辛苦 ==

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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♥ baby

Wanna apologise with my baby again.

Sorry my beloved baby.

I make you worry again.

Just now i sleep.

When i wake saw your message.

I feel very happy.

But then when i read it, i feel so sad ):

The feelings just like you dont want care me anymore.

But then i called you. and i know you no angry me.

Thankss baby. I love you.

I dont want anythings except you baby.

i can dont out dont movie what also dont want.

Just i wan you stay beside me.

But you said i can out because you work cannot keep accompany me.

Impossible you lock me. Thankss baby.

But , i promise, if i out i will take care myself.

Wont simply out with dont know de people.

baby , dont worry kay?

And +u on your work.

Just start sure will very tired de baby.

Slowly then okay le (:

Me support baby kay?

Mwuahs~

I love you baby.

I love you !!!

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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moody

Today nothing special.

Just the most special for me is...

This morning i get 'morning kiss' from my baby.

We chat while im waiting for bus.

Im happy that he still remember i like his morning kiss.

And so long i dint get a kiss from him. ):

after he gave is time to go.

And i cried in bus.

Feel so touch ?

I tot when i back from school can chat with you.

And you will treat me back like last time.

So i keep wait your reply.

But 9++ only you replied.

But you are still the same treat me cool.

I feel very disappointed again ):

And you like dont wanna care me anymore.

Before when i tell you feel not well or else.

You will care me and more.

But just now you dint give me any respond.

):

Why?!

treat me like this?

And you din't reply me ):

well, just let it be.

I cannot force you to treat me good.

These few days have a guy keep find me.

He is before take number from me d guy.

And i have reply him?

omg.

Im shocked too.

Is it too lonely?

and i dont know why i do this.

But everytime suddenly think about you.

Then stopped reply him.

he said when back from kl wan to bring me out.

And i dont know can i ?

This saturday maybe out.

wan movie with gor gor.

Hope i can (:

i wan to forget those sadness and enjoy my life.

So long no movie.

Hope this saturday can (:

Tomorrow you start training your work.

Good luck to you. (:

well, need go sleep le.

Not well at all.

And mood really down.

Night

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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♥Because of love

Today , i understand a lot of things again.

I should give you times.

Now is the time you worry about your work your future your money and more.

Between this , i think you will feel suffer and so stress is it ?

Sorry , im useless.

Until now only understand this.

I will try to less disturb you, not giving you more stress.

I hope you can pass this moment very well.

I also hope you can have a job and no need worry about your future.

So i will just try to ti liang you and give you more times.

Everyday give you few message to care you.

I think this is only what i can do for you right now.

one day , you will find me back is it ?

I hope you will.

I will wait you baby .

I will wait you come back and stay beside me ):

And between this , i will try my best to sleep early.

School times, 11 sleep and weekend 1am sleep.

I will try to take care myself and no need make you worry me.

But , i know im stupid. even how to take care myself also dont know.

Always make you worry about me ):

sorry baby.

this thursday you start your training about the work.

And saturday start your work.

Good luck to you. (:

Hope everythings will be alright.

salesman this job quite qing song if not wrong(:

If any problem i can be your listener too k?

But i hope you wont forget that im still the one who always care you.

And stay beside you when you need someone.

Now i'm waiting for my baby to come back.

I will never never give up you baby.

I love you ~

Mwuahs~

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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♥ Sadness

yesterday~

i said : enjoy sunday.

But now i think back yesterday.

no any enjoy's feel.

because of what ?

I cannot found my baby.

Morning busy as what i post yesterday.

Then afternoon. Still no see my baby reply me.

I think maybe he out not yet back.

Until 7pm . Everytime he out sure almost this time back.

Then i keep wait his reply but no too .

8pm still dont have. I start worry.

9pm still dont have. I worry much.

almost 10pm Is time let me offline and prepare my school things.

I still din't receive my baby's message. ):

And i dont know where he go.

His phone out of credit .

If i text him sure wont get any respond.

B4 i off. saw xing online.

I find him and ask where is him?

He said lion dance.

Only i know.

Feel so shame.

Need go ask where my bf and me this gf dont know where is him.

feel so shi bai ):

But what to do ?

B4 i off gt send somethings to you.

That time im hugging your shirt and cry.

Since 7pm i already hugging your shirt and waiting for your reply.

I cry and cry and type and type.

Then i off and back rooms prepare school things and sleep.

I listening song and my tears start drop down again.

Totally miss you and worry you.

Dont know you have take care yourself good good or not.

Dont know you have eat or not.

Dont know you have drinks many water or not. ):

All i dont know because of i cannot found you.

The feel really so bad.

Feel heart pain and i do missssssss you so much.

I keep imagine you.

i force myself to imagine you.

And i fall asleep with my tears and heart pain.

Today morning , late wake.

But still enough time to let me prepare myself.

When in bus i think about you too.

Dont know you sleep or not?

Or still online-ing and play your game?

And i fall asleep again.

When reached school syuen saw me.

She shocked.

I think because of my eyes?

She ask me is it very tired?

I say yes.

Im tired.

my heart tired too.

today i dint stay because i wan back home.

Find him.

I cannot wait at all.

And i lazy stay too.

Reached home.

After bath online.

See baby online and find you.

Say i reached home.

You no reply then i text you.

And you replied me.

with one 'k'.

how shocked am i ?

Start beg you.

say sorry to you,

apologise with you,

Hope you forgive me.

And so long so long then you replied me say you dint angry me.

and i replied and so long so long then you reply me and say you need out le.

Go for interview oh then.

No chat dao again but never mind .(:

Then jing jie tell me my baby went to her office interview.

I shocked why so ngam?

hm.. hope my baby can get this work .

good luck to you my baby.

And i want to tell you that.

I do love you so much,

And i misssss you so much.

):

i dont want you leave me.

Dont want you throw me away.

I wan you i wan you i wan you !

i wan my baby.

i hope we can like last time sweet sweet derh.

baby , can ma? TT

dont care how hurt is me but i will never never give up you.

Because i love you so much.

And i dont want to lost you this baby.

I will just love you and nobody nobody !

I love you baby.

mwuahs

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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♥ sat and sun ^^

yesterday we have school.

Just go school as normal because if absent will been tahan .

So just guai guai go school.

But quite nice too ! (:

Bc teacher no come so we just enjoy in class.

I have a japanese style family in class xp

The tie been make by us til so cute.

haha.

wan to see the picture.

Go my facebook (:

we take picture together.

Cute yea !

Then others teacher got come so just guai guai study (:

when finished school.

Wong po's boy boy send me back (:

And wong po go his house for take a rest.

At night , feel boring much cause 'he' out le.

he just like keep busy with his friend and no time to accompany me.

Sigh *

Then 7++ i called wong po ask where she.

wanna out with her.

Then he say still at his house then i just continue online.

Chat with my dear karen ♥

We talked about love .

aihh~

everythings was changed ! ):

Then 8++ wong po called me.

And she said : eh , jessy ! prepare ! im on the way go to your house. we go yam cha !

Then i changed my shirt and make my hair.

take my wallet and handphone then she reached (:

awwww ! how's the feelings ?

Oh yeah ! it's totally nice ! OMG~

so long no out le.

Then go salim 2 fetch her boy boy's friend.

If not wrong his name is nicholas ?

Then go fetch loong ger ger ! (:

feel funny with them ! ==''

We go tanjung aru (:

have a avacado milk !

awwww !

one word to describe.

N.I.C.E !

We chit chat there and when finished eat.

Go walk walk and take picture (:

Then actually decide back cause scare wong po's parents scold.

But at last she dont want !

then we go lintas find their friend ~

yam cha again ?!

OMG ~!

Then chit chat and help wong po make somethings xp

Then wong po's mummy called her.

And we back (:

aihh~

so happy can out !

I love the FEEL ! (:

Back home everyone was sleep.

i changed my shirt and online.

Play my poker poker.

So unlucky ~ i keep lose !

feel like lazy to play it le.

But i still play cause boring.

And din't feel wan to sleep.

I wait he* find me ~

sigh * sigh * sigh *

Receive mummy's message !

she said sleep early tomorrow morning bring me and my 2nd sis have a breakfast.

Then 4++ i sleep.

Morning 8 I wake.

then 9 somethings out with daddy mummy and my 2nd sis.

Go inanam take our breakfast.

Then go buy ketam , udang and many many. xp

Then go supermarket.

Buy ice cream and keropok ....


yeah !

so happy wei ~

11++ reached home.

start busy with our lunch.

then 1 start eat.

awwww !

FULL man ! ==''

waoo ~

walter date me out .

But i'm busy and feel quite lazy too !

sorry to him (:

tomorrow need school again.

hais ~

But wong po been gantung no need back school.

sure i'm boring much.

But luckily have syuen (:

Yeah !

Wait wednesday wong po back (:

Sure miss her ! xp

oh yea ~ every week need change place.

so ma fan de that teacher.

Tomorrow sit with andy

and behind me is syuen and nicholas !

OMG ~

the two crazy and cute guys again ! ==''

well, we sit in front of teacher.

i think will guai guai pay attention gua?

haha ~

hope so~

er..

And ....

baby , i dont have others bf.

My bf only you.

so dont worry kay?

i will just love you and no others

baby , so sorry to you.

I ♥ you !

Mwuahs~

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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总觉得，你离我越来越远.

总觉得，你离我越来越远.

你知道为什么每一次你问我

“还不睡？”

我都回答你，‘等一下’ 还是 ‘不想睡’ 吗？

因为我还怕，如果我说我先睡

你会说你迟点才睡

这样我会觉得没安全感

但是，有时候

你却说

‘那，我先睡了’

我会很高兴，

等你下了线，我也会跟着下线.

睡。

昨晚，也是一样.

最糟糕的是，

当我躺在床上，等着眼睛慢慢闭上的时候，

我发觉自己好像慢慢忘记了你的脸.

我开机，找着我们的合照

一张一张，慢慢看

当我关机时，在回想你的样子

可是脑袋，还是空空的

眼泪就这样流了下来.

因为我害怕.

每一次，只要一想你，

我就可以很容易的想起你的脸.

可是昨晚，好像不一样了

是因为太久没见面的关系吗？



有时候，觉得，

爱你爱到累了，可是却不愿意放手

有时候，觉得，

爱你是一件很幸福的事，也是不愿意放手

这就是为什么，就算再怎么累，

我也不会就这样放手，让你走.

因为这是我对自己的诺言.

也是我对自己保证过的

我会慢慢习惯，

只有聊天，没有碰面的感情

也许，

也许，

也许，

这样你不会觉得烦.

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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down

Mood quite down.

Just now afternoon after chat with you.

feel like dont wanna find you again.

As what someone told me.

Dont keep find you better.

After she told me this.

I try to changed myself.

Dont keep find you.

I keep make myself busy with somethings to forget you.

Today also the same.

Actually decide dont find you.

And when i back from shop.

Online.

Chat with wong po. wanna start my movie.

Then you find me.

And say somethings weird to me.

Just like somethings scared me.

Suddenly feel like i dont wanna lost you.

Then feel heart pain with you.

And forget about it.

At last , still nothing.

Just be back normal.

You busy yours. play game and throw me.

aihh~ I really dont know why i will like this ?

And now feel so down.

I say i will try to xi guan your xi guan.

But finally i know that it's hard.

Too hard for me.

I feel like im just like single.

Every morning when i wake.

i will think that am i single ?

but i think no ah. we still together.

and i forget it and start my new day.

But the feelings really just like im single.

I will just follow what the people told me.

Dont keep find you.

Wait you find me.

Cause if i find you , maybe you are busy will disturb you.

but if you find me mean you are free.

So , just like this ba (:

Maybe, less find you for you is better. ^^

I think this is what you want right ?

I will do everythings you wan for you.

The most important is you happy.

And i will slowly to xi guan you are these type of guy.

Even it's HARD for me (:

I try my best.

aihh~

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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I love my baby

Feel like wan to post somethings here.

baby , will you feel i'm annoying ?

Aihh ~

say really . I still cannot have 100% confident with our relation.

Because,

You sometimes treat me very good , sometimes treat me very cool.

I dont know in your heart , im which place.

Everytime , i decide call you.

sure i will think . I will scare .

What i scare for ?

I scare i call you will make you feel me very annoying.

Scare you are busy with somethings and i disturb you.

But i still will call you after i cool down and having confident.

When i'm waiting you accept the call.

You know how is the feel ?

It's just like somethings excited.

When 'hello' this word out.

Sure i will forget what to say.

And simply ask already eat ?

And somethings very simple.

And only i can slowly think what i wan to say with you.

Sometimes , i know i can no need call you.

But , what i still do that ?

because tooo miss you.

Sometimes ,

when call you , you are busy.

I will sad + disappointed.

And when you say you are playing game at cyber.

So simply answer me and end the call.

I will feel heart pain.

But i just act nothing and tell myself .

I should accept you are these type of boy.

And sometimes i will angry.

It's because i hope you will tam me.

This is why i dont like myself.

aihh~

and call you also because of care you worry you.

Sometimes , you dint answer my call.

I really worry much. ):

sometimes , i really hope can know your everythings.

what was happened on you.

and many many about you.

i like you care me.

i like you will say me this and that.

just like got chat with others boy boy chat or not.

dont do this dont do that.

dont wear this dont wear that.

i do hope you can like this.

I will feel so happy.

I like been care by you.

I like the feel.

And the most i hope is.

everynight at least have a good night kiss from you.

Just like b4.

B4 i sleep sure have a sweeeettt kisss from you.

and the most i hope is.

We can sleep at the same time.

It will make me feel like got an quan gan.

But less can like this.

and now .

I wan to xi guan your xi guan.

Xi guan you will late sleep.

xi guan you will late out late back

xi guan you will smoke.

xi guan your eveythings.

sometimes , you late out.

I really will feel like wan to wait you until you reach home.

Because i will worry you.

And hard to sleep in. ):

Not i always don't listen to you. Not guai.

But when you know me late sleep and scold me.

I love that feel too.

Even feel so scare when you scold me.

I like the feel together with you.

whatever at what place.

Thats why i always say wan to meet you.

But we less chance can meet.

And the problem is we dont know go where. ):

I Do hope can always be with you.

I like the feel you hug me.

Kiss me .

Hold my hand.

And i like looking at you.

I also hope can hug you until i fall asleep.

the feelings sure very nice.

But i know it's impossible. ):

I miss you baby.

We 12 days no meet le.

Almost 2 weeks le.

I always miss you hope can meet you.

But always no ):

now even wan meet you also not dare tell you.

Because you sure will ask me.

wan go where ? and i know i sure no answer.

): so i just can keep quiet and miss you ):

Aihh~

Anyway , baby i really love you so much.

I hope we can together last long.

I hope you can let me loving you , caring you.

And dont throw me away.

I wan to be yours always and always.

I like to be pig baby nelson's laopo.

I like the feel you call me laopo too.

It's nice for me.

Oh gossssh ~

I love you

I love you baby.

mwuahs ~

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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get sick

Today ~ get sick.

hate !

actually last night already feel not well.

I drink medicine.

Today morning, wake ~

awwww ! suffer ! more serious ! ><

before go school . as normal send a message for baby.

I still warning him take care drink more water dont get sick.

Cause i get sick already.

At school , keep feel like wan vomit .

keep drink water and tahan.

Until back home.

Reach home on9 , find baby.

Who know. my baby sick too ! ==

so unlucky derh aih ~

heart pain baby sick TT

wan sayang sayang baby le aiks~


tomorrow my special holiday start ~

three days !

aihh ~

but good also la

can rest at home and chat chat with baby (:

my friend , dont toooo misss me ah k?

xp

night night

and and and !

BABY , I LOVE YOU !

mwuahs ~ ^^

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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8month anniversary for you and me (:

Today is our 8month anniversary ♥

Actually when 12am i wan to text you.

But i not dare. Because...

I not sure today still can count as our every month anniversary or not.

Just because of the problem last time.

so i just pass it like this .

Nothings special.

No special word from you.

No special word for you.

And when afternoon.

I call you waked.

Before end called .

You wan a kiss from me ♥

I feel touched.

Already so long you dint ask any kiss from me.

When end called.

My tears fall down.

I dont know why my tears always easy drop down because of you?

But i know the tears drop down because of my happiness.

When you online .

I ask you the question.

Today can count as our every month anniversary?

Your answer make me touched again.

"ben dan , sure count a. every 18 is our birth"

baby , i do ♥ you so much.

I love you 8month le.

I appreciate you 8month le.

you belongs to me 8month le.

Im really so blissful.

Even last time we almost break.

But at last , i stay you beside me.

And thankss again for let me still have the chance to love you.

care you.

and Having you. ♥

I will appreciate you .

I will never let you go.

Just like how i stay you beside me.

And i want to say.

Thankss baby.

For care me and for the everythings you gave me.

I ♥ you !

Mwuahs ~

hope we can hold each others hand and together pass the life everyday.

I hope dont have 'break' this word between us again.

I ♥ you pig baby !

I ♥ you pig baby !

I ♥ you pig baby !

^^

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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Just a post and not scolding

somethings i feel lazy to care about.

If dont know how to appreciate your own bf.

After lost him please dont blame people too stick with your bf.

It's just a reason that make people feel that you are the one need to care more.

But it's not true.

In relationship.

No true and false.

You should know this.

So please dont blame for people.

I admit , we are too friend with your x-bf .

And this is not a reason make you two break.

You should know this,

in relationship only is you two's things but not others.

he choose to break is because he feel tired to continue with a girl that dont know appreciate him.

Even can stick with others guy in front of him and act dont know him.

well, i cannot say too much because im not in the relationship.

if you wan blame me or either my friends, just let you.

We cannot control you (:

And friends, just want to tell you .

Even your best friends also will betray you.

Be careful please !

You say i have new friends then ignore you guys,

But you never know why i do this.

A group friends, as what Pn.Tan say.

Easily quarrel and sure a lot problem between the relationship.

And because got two is the most good.

And one of her also betray her best friend just she dont know.

because i know it so i choose to less follow you people and follow the girl you guys dont like at all.

with her , i can start my other friendship.

But not best friend just normal friend.

I dont know how to trust a people since i tot im been betray but it's just somethings wrong with the teacher.

You people are really so scary for me except the one still not so good with the two.

They even can betray each others but still can so good in front others people.

I really dont understand .

I know 'somethings' , so i leave the relationship .

But i choose to be silent .

Because i dont want spoil it.

i just leave and without any hurt.

At first , feel quite sad cause almost 4 years.

But now , i feel nothing.

Best friends , hard to find.

For me , i think no need best friend , friend enough.

Now you everythings just help them,

But you also never know when i dont like you, what they talk about you.

What the feel they have with you.

You dont know at all. But i think you are not that stupid .

well, it's just a pass !

Just let it be a bad memories .

And continue pass the life with colourless.

Colourless is really better than colourful.

Colourless at least you wont scare somethings make your life become black and white.

And colourful's life sure one day it will be black and white and sure you hard to accept it.

fine , friendship not a problem i need to care about.

Got or not also the same.

Betray this word is always apear in a friendship.

It's just somethings very scary.

And i dont want it happen on me.

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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Simple update ^^

finally can online (:

today i get "love letter" from teacher.

The special holiday for me Fanshu jessy.

Three days start from next tuesday until thursday.

I will enjoy my 'holiday'.

Thankss for the special holiday ^^




Today finally i know the reason you hate me?

I get it from your best friend's mouth.

The reason is beacause a lot people think me together with your x bf since you two still together?

OmG !

i'm your friend since form1. we know each others 3years plus.

And also your bf. You dont understand him and me?

Can you just be mature and think clearly about this question ?

It's impossible k ?

Just best friend walk so close then call couple ?

swt !

I dont mind la then ~ just wan to tell you.

Me and him just friend dont think much.

And the next , how you treat me see me.

That is your business.

I cannot control your action ! I'm not you (:



Already few days no hao hao chat with you le my baby.

Your phone out of credit.

And when i call you , you always busy.

Today when i online , i saw you.

But i din't find you.

I think you're shocked too ?

Because quite heart pain when think back how you talk to me when i called you.

when you find me , quite happy.

Cause at least you will find me.

You played me.

BAD GUY !

you cheated me you need go kl for study.

Make me shocked and my tears drop down.

I really scare you will leave me.

I cannot imagine how is me after you leave ?

But at last , you tell you .

You played me !

but im happy too , at least it's not really.

God Bless . You dint leave me.

Baby , Dont leave me kay ?

I dont want you leave me !

And you cannot leave me too !

Now waiting you back .

I wan chat with you.

I miss you ~

really few days no chat le.

I miss you awwwwww !

i have many many things want to say.





Tomorrow ,

Maybe going to mountain with family & cousin.

Quite happy.

Can enjoy this saturday and ignore the 'boring'.

hahaha

i wan take many many nice picture.

sunday just back (:

BBQ there ! wuhuu !



Nothing to say le la.

just wait for my new update (:

nights .

Mwuahs ^^

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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Just normal post (:

A lot things happened.

really. i dont know what to say about what was happened.

Friends ?

About the betray.

I think it's because of teacher.

it's pass !

dont talk about it.

And now ?

Others friend ?

start be cool.

Just like everyone become stranger.

I dont know how this happen.

because im very tired and lazy to care about it anymore.

You all dont know what is appreciate then fine.

Just let it be.

I dont need a group friend.

will betray each others one by one.

It's very scary.

Even the BEST FRIEND also betray.

I just need friends now but not BEST friends.

Because i cannot 100% trust a person now.

aihh ~

suan le ba.

Just let it and dont care le.




Now me and my baby.

can say is ok le ba ?

He treat me better le.

Feel so touch sometimes.

But sometimes,

I really do hope he can understand my word.

but i know , i cannot force him.

He can treat me as last time .

I'm really happy much.

Now even one 'laopo' out from his mouth.

I already feel im blissful know ?

Because i know i should appreciate the every word out from him.

I dont know when can meet him and hug him tight.

I really miss the moment.

I loves the hug from him.

I loves the kiss from him.

I loves the feelings from him.

I loves the care from him.

I loves the sweet word from him.

I loves the everythings he gave me.

And i do appreciate it (:

My baby. Mwuahs ~

I love you. So much.




Friends,

i still the same.

Just i'm waiting you awake.

I'm waiting you come back.

But please understand what your wrong.

And i will think and change about my bad attitude.

Friends just like lovers.

But Friends never have 'BREAK' this word.

Friends can together forever.

Lovers maybe cannot.

So , appreciate friends too.

well, about you and your bf.

cheer up.

(:

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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