Feel better after say it out (:

Feel better after say it out to you.

Actually i put it in my heart quite long.

Can say is when we started until now.

And because of that night then i start feel i will crazy soon if i still put it in heart.

Then i tell gor.

And gor teach me and make me understand what to do.

And very glad that my thinking not that childish ?

hmm.. well, you saw my pm.

Then you start ask me about it.

I just dont wanna answer you.

because i think nothing to say about it.

And meaningless to explain to me about it.

So just called you dont ask me about it AGAIN !

but then you keep explain to me.

Because you dont want me simply think .

Then no choice i just say it out to you.

And i think you feel a bit angry after listen what i say ?

Not because i think like this .

But because what people say to me ?

you tell me and tell me.

You and her just a past tense.

And now you loves me and nobody.

Because only me will give more loves to you ?

And you say we two are blissful now.

And she have her boy.

AnD again you and her = IMPOSSIBLE.

you say this to me.

Even also quite hurt.

I dont know why , even you are saying you loves me.

But the feel just like you angry people say this and so you say like this.

But i feel happy and touch too.

Cause at least you know i loves you much.

Now i wan to say.

YA, right .

people always say that to me, and ask me about it.

But after that people will say that "we can know and feel that nelson very sayang you"

this always make me feel better after been asked the question and hear the sentence.

And i admit that .

My babe boy is really sayang me much.

I love him and loves him.

Nothing is forever .

I put this in my heart since the first time gor tell me.

Yesh i trust it too.

But i hope i can just pass my life with you.

And we together face the problem, solve the problem.

And also sweet together share somethings good and bad together .

Hold each others hand until we cannot protect the lovessss between us (:

I trust that if we know what to do .

Know how to protect and appreciate then we will more longer .

Cause i know you wont backstep me.

I trust you much for this .

And maybe i ever dont trust you ?

This is such normal things in our life.

And i will try to trust you more (:

Cause you make me feel worth if i trust you (:

You're a good boyfriend for me.

You're really good enough for ME ME ME !

at least when im get hurt and you will help me to cover it and wont let me be alone.

When you done somethings wrong you will admit it and wont cheat on me.

When im moody you will make me laugh.

And when im angry see your face will directly make me laugh. XD

Baby face !

But not as what keith and karen say .

欠打 d baby face !

XD

really feel quite better after i say it out (:

Thankss a lot my baby .

Mwuahs ~

And i hope those who have read my blog ,

and you know what i sensitive to .

so please dont do that to me (:

I will treat her as a friend and i wont treat her as my enemy (:

That is justt a past tense , just forget about it ^^

And hope she blissful with her boy too .

Okay la.

Nothing to say le .

Stop here !

Still waiting my baby wake.

Hmm. my BIG BIG PIG baby !

Xp

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Hurt

Yesterday Yesterday Yesterday !

Morning reached school then start make the present .

Make make make !

Then wong po reached she call me faster go out.

cause i wan put my shirt and others things at her car .

But then his dad put her at kk bus stop there .

Scare to go there .

So i dint just put it at class (:

Then b4 finish school i text baby.

And somethings happened.

My mood down much !

Cause i dont like people do somethings without a good plan. ==

Or after plan then change it and so on.

That night i plan then tell them my plan and all okay le.

who knows suddenly change !

direct angry and i scold people !

sorry about it.

Just i dont like it .

I say i dont wanna go le.

Call them enjoy.

Then no choice he look no mood and feel like dont wanna celebrate le.

Then i just accept it and follow it.

After school we go pts eat .

Then go his home.

When wan reach then i text him and tell him.

Who know.

I reached there , he called me go wong po home sin after that just go his home.

That time my mood more down ! sibeh angry .

==

He already say like this then okay ba !

Just follow again what HE WAN !

Cause if go wong po house then 5 just go his home.

then reached wong po home.

Bath then call andy out.

we go yam cha and having a lot fun.

I think andy will vomit blood if continue talk to me.

haha.

Then we go zako cyber.

On9 awhile.

Then wong po call her mummy .

After end call and she tell me 6 just go.

Direct !!!!!!!!!! ==''

sorry i know not you drive but is your parents.

Just i cannot control myself to stop angry about it.

Cause i already tahan you people keep change the plan.

And wong po call me back home.

And i dont feel wan to back.

I sit beside andy and see he play dota.

He know me bad mood and keep make me smile.

ANd thankss him a lot .

My friend (:

Then suddenly feel wan to cry.

cause i tell him and he just like dont understand the feelings.

Even you say just late one hour.

never mind .

But have you people think about the feelings.

try i treat you all like this .

Hais ~

Then angry him and her ==''

Cannot control my tears and i tell wong po.

I wan back.

Then we walk back and i keep tahan my tears.

I find gor gor . Yang .

He accompany me and make me happy.

And thankss my gor very much too (:

Then 6 ++ reached his home .

Actually angry much but saw his face .

Then i cannot tahan =='' his face always make me smile. ==''

Then just forget it ba ~

But now share with you all and i feel angry too ==

Then .... his party start lu.

after eat then pakto with baby yi xia.

Happy to meet my baby again.

Then 9++ wong po back le.

And i stay there lu wait daddy .

But daddy dont know where his house then say call mummy.

Call mummy she say having dinner with friend and she no car.

so baby's friend fetch me back .

Thankss ^^

Before i back. I borrow baby's mum d novel !

hahaha !

Happy de (:

And i will borrow his mummy mine (:

And about the present .

Hope my baby will like it.

Even it's just a normal present.

Mwuahs ~

BAby i love you.



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While playing baby's comp.

I saw somethings , it's just a very very small case.

And i very mind it.

I dont know why.

I think that i can accept it ba .

But now i just know that i can't.

Cause ever have some people asked me.

You wont hate his x gf ?

This question i also ever asked myself.

People keep say 'NELSON LOVE JIA YING VERY MUCH'

This word always hurt me.

Until now still got people say this to me.

But,

i know that i not hate her and i feel xian mu ?

Because it's really meaningless if i hate her.

Before they are couple and now they not.

Why i should hate her?

If one day me break with him and he got others isit his new gf need to hate me?

I feel weird actually.

Just i will very sensitive if i saw about her at you there,

Dont care you phone your comp or your book or what .

I know maybe im small gas.

I admit it and sorry i mind it much.

The things i saw make me feel you still love her.

Even i not sure just my feelings tell me like this.

Maybe it's really i think.

How come you can so fast forget about her ?

Hmm.

suan le ba .

Justt try to accept ?

even it's hurt me much ?

well, just sharing my words here.

If my words make one of you feel angry, so sorry .

cause if i put at heart i will suffer so just say it out.

Sorry yea !

Hao la ~

wong po !

I wait you upload the picture for me (:

And next sunday going back to kuching le ^^

I think we wan to take 全家福.

Cause my 3rd uncle also back from taiwan .

and all will be celebrate cny at there (:

actually i dont feel wanna back.

cause he is at here .

But no choice (:

anyway , dont miss me my friend

XD

Okay la ~!

stop here (:

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recently updated (:

Aiks ~

Long time no update my blog le orh !

haha sorry my readers (:

now just simply update .

Cause saw everday got people viewed my blog.

And me din't updated it !

Feel so sorry . xp

these few days just normal la nothing happen (:

Just enjoy my school life now .

cause having fun with friends at school.

just like my daughter ying , her bf , wong po florence ..

I like my class now cause it's small and can sit together with friend.

last time that class we just sit one people and nobody beside you .

feel so lonely eh .

Just i heard somethings from my friends.

feel got a bit scare with the class now ):

Now go back to Saturday (:

early morning i wake and read my novel.

Not yet wash face , brush teeth and everythings.

But then i received ying's message.

She said andy is on the way go my home.

OMG ~!

Then faster put down my novel and go bath bla bla bla .

When i done it all .

Then go check my printer cause we need use it !

Aww ! My printer got problem cannot use it .

So call my dad go and repair it .

Then andy reach i think is almost 10.30am ?

we wait ying together and we just have some topic (:

I not yet eat breakfast . never mind . Not very hungry (:

Then ying reach . we just chit chat pass the time like this cause wait for the printer.

Oh no ! but if we waste the time like this then our next plan will be cancel.

Then i think we use draw first .

Me and andy start draw and ying cut (:

Aww ! i just know that i draw the word quite nice de .

ahahaha ! dont blame me ss. Just i love it man ! (:

Then the printer is really so 'da pai'.

Me and ying think dao others idea and we do it (:

easy way ! but creative and nice too (:

1++ then all hungry le.

I cook spaghetti for them and also myself.

Use alot of time and they do it while waiting me. (:

All done ! and we having our lunch !

Not very nice i know .

Sorry la ~ got cook for you all then good le. xp

After eat ...

Then we start make make make make !

And 4++ we finished it ! oh my ! FINALLY .

We clean the place we used .

And BATH TIME !

me and ying bath in my mummy's room bathroom.

And andy wait us in my room (:

After all done .

Actually wan follow my parents go cp for shopping .

But i have another plan with ying.

Shhh ~

Then we call car and we go kolombong .

Try guess . whyyy go there ?

Hmmp~

First - they two at my home no pakto cause of my parents.
awhile back awhile out make them not dare pakto.
So they decide find a place and pakto.

Second - I wan to meet my baby. I miss him alot. and he sick ):
Then i decid go there lu . xp Find my baby (:
Pity Him . sick heavily ): Keep sayang his face !
hahaha ! but he say me bla bla bla. ==''


When 9++ need leave cause ying parents scold le aiks.

Then we back (:

My home.

And ying dad come fetch us go cp (:

She go find her mummy and i go find my family.

Then 10.30pm

Home SWEET Home. (:

Just feel happy even just meet you awhile my baby ^^


That is my last saturday life (:

Quite meaningful.

now baby's birth coming soon lu (:

Hope it fast fast fast ! i wan to meet my baby !

awww ! miss him a lot ! (:

And maybe i will celebrate valentine early than others people ?

Cause 7feb i need go soon ):

And my bad baby dont wanna follow his parents go there ):

Cause of LION DANCE ! ?

never mind ba (:

He happy then okay le lu. xp

Actually me and ying is thinking to make somethings ah .

And maybe next week we will start to make it (:

well , tomorrow need go cp with ying .

Actually is friday but baby need celebrate his birth on friday ?

so we change day (:

baby early celebrate his birth (:

cause 4feb is school day .

AND !!!!

sport day is coming !

next monday and tuesday (:

and wednesday special holiday ^^

I think this year sport day i will guai guai not absent eh ?

phewww !

i'm guai moi ba ! xp

These few days at school have take a lot picture but lazy upload to here cause need take long time.

So if wanna see just go my facebook ba (:

if you people saw one sweet couple !

Dont jealous ah . xp

say really ah ~

me everyday jealous wei ):

They sit behind me and everyday pakto only !

TT

pity de me ? hahaha !

aiya ! just nothing unhappy happened la (:

Oh ow !

Nothing can say le.

tats all for today la (:

hee ^^

bah bye all readers .

And !!!!

I LOVE YOU MY BABY ^^

MWUAHS

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5month anniversary (:

awwww !

anythings special for today ?

Hmmp ~!

yesss ~

What is it ?

alright (:

5month anniversary with my beloved baby ^^

So happy that i can pass this 5month with the one i love .

even sometimes we argue , but i know we still belongs to each others.

Right baby ? (:

Last few days ~ I dont know what happen between me and baby.

we keep on quarrel .

quarrel good back le then again !

keep on repeat and repeat !

I dint ever think that our gan qing will become so worse !

OMG ~!

Sometimes is my own problem.

I know it ~

But everytime when im awake.

It's too late !

why ? Because you already been hurt by me and my word.

I feel so sorry to you ~ Because of my bad attitude.

I will try to change it. (:

But that day you ask what is my problem .

And i told you what i feel what i think.

lastly , we solved it (:

And now i hope we can pass everyday just like last time.

Sweet us (: I ♥ it and i Miss it too.

Alright , forget those sad things (:

Yesterday out with baby .

awww !

Long time dint meet my baby le.

Miss him damn much de !

When you called me and ask wan go for movie or not?

how is my mood ?

Dont know how to describe it.

is really too happy !

and over HAPPY .

haha ~ i think im crazy much.

we go cp ^^

go buyy movie ticket.

Actually wan watch "大日子".

But FULL ! TT

sob* sob*

Then we watch Ju-On lu.

It's quite nice la.

Just the ghost's face make people feel scary ==''

and the sound !

But luckily have my baby beside me (:

after movie walk here walk there .

xp

Then go lintas for our dinner !

So full ! TT

Then they send me backk (:

just happy to meet with my baby ^^

Baby . Thanks for accompany me pass my time between this 5month

Do appreciate it ♥

Mwuahs ~

I hope we can hold each others hand and pass our life with happiness (:

I love you my baby

And so sorry about what i did that make you hurt or sad .

Mwuahs

And yesterday is wong po and her bf 1month anniversary (:

Congratz to her too (:

Tats all la ^^

Bah Bye ! ^^

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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raining day ^^

awww !

Raining day.

Last night cannot sleep well.

Why ?

hmmp~

when stop msg with you it's almost 1am.

and you din't reply my last msg.

So i just wait it. wait you text me and say you are at home already.

But while waiting im quite tired too.

close my eyes. fall asleep.

but then few minutes wake again.

keep repeat and repeat untill 3am++ almost 4am.

Then you text me and say you reached home.

Then i replied you.

You're shocked i think ?

Hmmp~

i call you to sleep cause i know you was tired much.

and you call me go sleep too.

But 4.30am i need wake le.

left 30minutes i think.

Then you go sleep and i sleep too.

4.30am alarm ring and i close it cause really tired much.

Then 5am OMG ! really need to wake le.

Then prepare my things then go school.

In bus feel sleepy then sleep.

When i reach school din't feel sleepy le (:

Luckily . wong po early reached.

We do our homework and i hungry much TT

my dear daughter accompany me go canteen and buy hot dog bun (:

Today....

Been blame byy teacher cause of the ribbon !

S H I T ! it's not my work and i just help you.

But the ribbon lost me also been blame and the ribbon is me out money to buy.

Aiks ~ din't claim with teacher but been scold also ?

WHAT THE ~~!!! !@#$%^&*()

When M3 wong po come and sit with me.

we talked a lot (:

Today time pass very fast.

maybe cause of early finish school ?

Actually my daughter say wan come my home.

But at last she dint'.

==''

It's okay !

Just pass my time like this.

Damn boring.

my baby 3++ just wake.

aiks ~

tats all for today la (:

OH YEA !

Thankss to lu zai ge ge ^^

Teach me fix my msn word. (:

Now become nice nice le. xp

HAHAHA !

alright (:

Stop here.

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我愛我的傢‘白色空間’，因爲它是我心靈上的好朋友

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upset night

hais ~

now is 12.57 almost 1am le.

i still no sleep.

actually 4.30am need wake .

and go to school.

But actually just now decide sleep de.

But before sleep argue with you again .

I dont know what happened?

so suddenly.

me really nothing but you keep say i got .

It's ok !

you called me no need reply you .

When i saw this really dont feel want to sleep le.

Then saw wong po on9 .

chat with her.

then not long you find me .

aiks ~

i really dont know dont know dont know !!!!!

hais !

you say if i wan leave you just say it out .

But i din't !

if you wan say you can direct say it to me.

hais ~

baby , i feel sad you know ?

last time we quarrel .

After we good back you told me.

Next time if quarrel dont feel want break then dont say about it .

But now is you say it out ?

hais ~

You tell me you are a sensitive people.

Sorry about it . Maybe my word always make you think negatively .

aiks ~

nothing can say le.

tats all wan to say la. (:

tomorrow be panda gurl (:

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Do ♥ my baby so much

Aww !

today marathon ~

quite tired de ==''

many many complain.

Ngahahaaha !

my daughter most pity follow dao me.

keep listen me complain this and that !

When reach school my others sista already rest there and drinking le.

TT

useless me ! ==''

now only i know ! hahaha

Dont blame me please !

i know the first is ONG ING UNG ==''

fine ~

today after school that 3 sopo go my house ~

my daughter ying , florence and wong po !

XD~

Then my daddy fetch us go lintas ~

actually decide go Frenz de but just finish our lunch at my house

so they accompany me go reload and we go see shirt ~

we try alot ==''

like wan to spoil people's fitting room ==

Then i bought one shirt .

It's really nice !

I love it ♥

hee ^^

buy le then go bank tuk money money ! XD

yiyer ! no money le TT

oh my ! ==''

Then go Frenz yam cha lu

we talk alot .

keep gossip (:

Then not long wong po come find us .

Before this , she go find her bf (:

Pakto ba people !

yerr !

Jealous wor ! i wan too ):

miss my baby alot.

aww !

two boys take my number from me.

==''

first write a letter for me !

and second call his friend come take from me ==

how come ?! ==''

I think now my baby worry alot .

But baby , please dont worry .

you wont lost me

i just belongs to you and NOBODY NOBODY NOBODY !

and i wont let myself belong to others .

cause my heart just only for my beloved baby only.

and no second people.

I love you my baby ♥

And trust me (:

I will appreciate you cause i know how much you love me and siak me.

i know i cannot lost you

CANNOT LOST YOU !

see clearly please !

I do ♥ you so much as i cannot describe it .

Mwuahs ~

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happy birth to my mui ^^

Tomorrow "merentas desa".

I HATE IT MAN !

feel lazy to go .

for me it's really meaningless and waste time. ==

So dint feel want to go.

But , my daughter wan me to go . (:

And at home also quite boring de.

So i think i am going to attend (:

I am a good gurl ba ^^

Today quite boring at school de.

early morning then need go dewan !

oh shit ! i hate it ==''

feel sleepy de.

When back class is sc.

dennis class. ==

my eyes always wan to close de.

how come ?

then she ques suddenly call dao me.

direct energy FULL ==''

shock dao me ba .

but luckily i can answer her (:

everyday pass the time like this .

hais ~

But form 4 le really need study hard abit le.

aiks~

everythings is not same as form 3 le aiks~

phewww ~

back home. open laptop ~

online .

watch pps.

quite sleepy de.

actually wan sleep de but sms with my baby

then no sleep le keep tahan ==''

but chat chat with jeff (:

he quite friendly de lerh.

xp

he talk really so geng ==''

make dao me feel like he bully me !

hahaha

actually NO. just my feelings nia.

XD

aiya !

nothing else can say le (:

just a simple update ^^

Good night everyone (:

OH YEAH !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY CARIS MUI ^^

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sorry for late update (:

I'm back ! (:

sorry for the late update ^^

er.. i start NOW ! (:

22dec09

as normal work only , and i text you .

you early wake cause your mummy call you wake.

Then i keep call you and talked to you

cause im really super duper triple BORING and MISS baby de.

And i want you come find me,

But you need see either your friend come or not .

After that i work and we stopped sms.

Then you called me and asked where is me.

Then i guess that you're at there le. xp

And i feel happy much . XD

But you just accompany me a while and take your shirt to me.

Then you need go le.

Really felt want to cry when you go .

Cause so long no meet you when meet but it's just a short time.

It's really better than NO la. (:

Then i text you and asked 7pm somethings can come back or not ?

i will called mummy bring the seaweed for you.

Then you come and we meet again ! (:

b4 we closed the shop we need to clean the floor.

and you helped me ! hahaha *cute baby.

Anyway thankss too mwuahs !

then times up we closed shop.

i called mummy and asked she got bring or not .

But she said she forget ! OH SHIT !

Then never mind .

I back and say bah bye to baby le TT

tats all for today .

Miss my baby so much de.

happy to meet him ^^


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23dec09

hahaha !

happy day again (:

as normal work

then 4pm somethings baby called me

asked me after work wan go for movie ?

my answer sure is YES ! hahah

then wait for finish work and back home (:

when back home.

prepared my things .

And wait baby come fetch me (:

10pm somethings you reached and we go 1b for movie.

FINALLY can watch movie with baby again .

miss it miss it ! xp

After movie go kingfisher Mc Donald.

I cannot eat at all.

Cause of sickness ! SHIT MAN ! ==

my baby them buy le somethings and back to car .

Mummy called me .

suddenly mood down .

Cause i know is time to back le ! TT

tats all.

Happy to meet baby again ! ^^

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31dec09

Last day for 2009 (:

And we have to start a new life for 2010.

Today also is the day i get my salary (:

And today after meet my baby ^^

After work then baby's mum come fetch me and bring us go warisan ^^

Then use warisan bus go 1b (:

meet wong po and also vun loong gor.

then they need go le. Friend waiting them.

After go niao niao . Then go eat sin lu .

waseh ! sibeh hungry de TT

Then go buy movie's ticket and baby them go play pool.

arghh ! BORING de see them play .

==

Then is time to go in le.

waoo !

we just say a "HAPPY NEW YEAR" to each others .

Cause we are still in cinema when 01.01.10 12.ooam.

ANyway happy too cause together with baby (:

When back...... (dont want to say == pass le . scary ==)

2009's life for me quite good de.

Cause no bf just only when 18.08.09 start with baby (:

So my 2009's life is really better than 2008 (:

GLAD ! i hope my 2010's life can be better too ^^

And i hope can pass every years with my beloved baby with happiness.

tats all ^^ bah bye ! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !

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04Jan10

Today reopen school.

When i wake prepared everthings my mood is still normal.

When in school bus my mood is getting down.

cause suddenly miss my baby alot .

i dont know why ?

isit think about cannot meet you at school le ?

maybe ? i dont know too.

my tears drop down with silent .

but slowly i feel better (:

When reached school.

wait for my friend and we back to our new class (:

this year my class is my baby x class. xp

and have alot new classmates.

Cause seperate with my x classmate .

But i feel luckily cause i dint seperate with my all best friends.

my daughter ying

florence

michelle

wong po

and also my daughter's bf andy ^^

First day open school then feel stress much !

cause of school's rules !

It really become worse than last few years.

It make we all feel stress .

So we hate it !

first day feel tired much .

3pm somethings just reached home.

direct text my baby cause i miss him much .

i have to start my form 4's life .

I think is really different with form3's life le.

so need to study hard and understand for all subject

and can get better result on exam.

I hope i can do it . (:

baby ever told me , need think about my future too (:

now our class teachers is quite fierce de

and me not sit with my friends .

and i think i will pay attention when teachers teaching ?

Cause if sit with my friends sure gossip when teacher teaching .

so good luck to all (:

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06jan10

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANDY WAN !

(:

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